So then, what has the last twelve months held?
One acceptance of never ever going to happen and one thought of not a fucking clue. and the love would be completely oblivious and the not a clue would suspect they were the other. It's all fun and games!!!
The last year has brought many things into my life. It has brought death twice, it has brought beauty, it has brought new work, it has brought some of the most precious things I have and will ever own and it's brought some shity little nonsense blog....... It's brought the first Christmas in a very long time that I haven't dreaded. the latter sadly comes at the lack of most feeling and emotion about the said day. It's now just another day........ I've met some people who live in the block of flats I love in that I trust enough to give a set of keys to. They are wonderful.
what will the new year bring? For a start it's going to bring a reboot of an old mentality. Everything is crossed that I will no longer be getting takeaways and petrol station lunch and a relaunch of me watching what I eat and working out regularly. It's, I think, time for the Frazer of 2004-2005 to return. We'll see......
I don't think I've ever actually named people on these blogs before but I have to give special mentions to to the following people in no specific order.............
Sarah, You're amazing. I genuinely love you to bits. Don't ever change and always remember no matter what happens I am always on the end of the phone. Who would have envisaged when there was a refusal to speak to me in the real world.
Jen, You know what you mean to me. You're like a sister to me and I love all of you in that house on a much deeper level than I will ever be able to put into words.
M, You know who you are. You're the guitar shining light You're the one that every time I touch a stringed instrument You pop into my head. I know you're going to be VERY uncomfortable with this mention. The world is yours, grab it!!! You make the phone call and I'll be there. You shout and I'll come running. You're the centre of my constantly rotating musical universe. We leave and we return but I really hope we never actually end.
I know it might sound sad that only three people are listed but six are implied and those six people are the most important people outside of my family in my day to day life.
Old love. This year she returned. She's now engaged. I think it's a fucking mistake to your life on a nuclear level however a very large piece of my heart lies with her. She knows where I am and I will always help her in any way I can regardless of my personal circumstance. She knows that and any future woman will always have to accept that. it's my emotional daughter and god forbid anyone who ever tries to get in the way of that.
I know not what else to say other than I really do wish everyone who reads this all the love in the world and even if it's just this one you've read thank you for your support.
Love and peace to everyone and for the final time this year.........
FUCK THE NONSENSE!!!!
Loads of love
Frazer :-)
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